Jillian Michaels is trying to kill me.

So here I am lying in a sweaty ugly mess on the floor in my bedroom and it dawns on me... Jillian Michaels is trying to kill me... I thought it was a wonderful thing that I can spend under 10 dollars and get a crazy good workout video, and I get home super motivated to workout and get it shape.. But after the first of three workout segments the horrible truth hits me once again. I am out of shape and kickboxing may not have been the best choice.. So a little background on me, about two years ago after my first little girl was born who we will call "The Fuzz" I really got my shit together and lost about 45 pounds. I was feeling super good about my self, and then I got in a bad car accident and cracked my sternum. That was the end of my strict workout schedule. Now two years later I have gained about 12-20 pounds of that back and I am a once again a stumpy giraffe :( I have been trying unsuccessfully for about six moths to find that motivation again. And I figured that since Jillian helped me once she could do it again. But, let me tell you that it is really hard to watch a group of perky buff women dancing around and barley breaking a sweat, when I am about to keel over from exhaustion. Also, I am finding that I am super uncoordinated, like really really uncoordinated. I am embarrassed for my self, and I am thankful that no one can see me flailing around like an uncoordinated Richard Simmons. There was even a point today when I accidentally hit my poor cat with a dumbell. So I guess we are really getting specific Jillian is trying to kill not only me but my poor overweight cat too.. What a bitch... So long story short, I am once again beginning this bullshit workout thing. Now if I could only get my eating under control I will be set :)